Will delete this so hard for me to post .. This photo is pretty self explainitory! I’ve come a long long way but I’ve still got miles to go.. These first three photos were about 5ish kg above my lowest less or more can’t exactly remember but I know I had gained weight.. I don’t even know what I looked like really all I knew was I couldn’t sleep in bed without getting bed sores, I couldn’t smile like it was impossible I could move my lips to smile but it was just a way of placing my lips.. I was pale, freezing, severely constipated, mental, my heart always hurt like burning, everyone was shutting down.. My kidneys everything I was obsessive over everything food and exercise! I was anorexia ! But for some reason I couldn’t see myself as thin no matter how many side affects I add. I still don’t think I was that thin .. But I weighed less than my 7 year old sister weighs now and that’s not ok well so I tell myself .. On the right was me at my pre Ed bestfriends 16th party trying to be ok with wearing a dress an socializing I had a great night I wa freezing yes but it was a freezing night ! I’m no where near better but I am a lot better since the first few photos #transformation #recovery #anorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #eatandbeat #fat #thin #bodydismorphia ..